Welcome - part 2 - Dennis Kucinich

I got email from people who obviously don’t want to submit comments here or post at the forum.  Rather than spending endless hours responding to everybody individually, I’ll clarify a few issues here.

I’m NOT suicidal. 

Here’s an excerpt from an email:

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So if I were going to off myself, I would prefer it to be a very quiet sort of family affair where I get to formally say “good-bye” to everybody I care about, and then walk into a room where somebody puts me to sleep — like a stray dog that nobody wants.

I don’t intend this as an argument against Christine preferred way to go. It’s just my personal preference. Fact of the matter is, neither of us wants to “BE” on this planet anymore, and Christine is at least the second other person I’ve corresponded with who is brutally honest about the fact. Lots of people might argue, “Well [name deleted], everybody feels that way from time to time”  — to which I would respond, “Yes, but do you feel that way every time you open your eyes in the morning — and all day long — every fuckin’ day — until you close your eyes at night?”

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It’s NOT true that I don’t want to live anymore. 

My suicide is more of an act of defiance or a declaration of war.

Think of it as joining the military to defend your country.   In my case, it’s not about defending my country, as I have no allegiance and never will have any allegiance to any country. 

It’s about defending the people who see no alternative but to kill themselves because they can’t pay their bills or they can’t get medical care because they’re POOR and nobody gives a damn!

I’ve only had time to post about Emilio Saladriagas, Kenneth Baker and Wanda Dunn, but there are MANY more.   Unfortunately, MOST are not even identified.  No paper ever writes about them because they quietly kill themselves instead of finally raising hell and making a PUBLIC statement.

I really don’t want to encourage anyone to commit suicide, but if you do, at least PLAN and make the news and let them know WHY you killed yourself.  Don’t die for nothing.

I know that most people are tremendously afraid of being embarrassed or ridiculed. 

And as I posted here, many people are very cruel.  It’s horrifying that Emilio could be reading those comments, I still don’t know what happened to him. 

If you succeed with your suicide, you won’t have to read those comments.  Or more likely, you won’t care.  I can’t help but believe that Emilio made a difference when he set himself on fire at the Rent-A-Center because he couldn’t take their collection harassment anymore. 

I hope that if enough people SEND A MESSAGE with their suicide, some politicians will care enough to amend the Fair Debt Collection Practices Act to INCLUDE original creditors, to LIMIT collection calls and to impose some other restrictions. 

Very few people don’t pay their bills because they don’t feel like it.

The people who deliberately defraud creditors won’t be bothered by collection calls.  They’ll follow my recommendations, change their phone numbers and addresses, etc.   The harassment calls are directed at people who choose between decent food and paying credit cards, the people who made payments on credit cards INSTEAD of paying for a new phone number and private mailbox.

Here are some suggested changes to the FDCPA:

My censored comment at InsideARM (collection site)

While at the subject of legislation, I have to mention Dennis Kucinich.  I posted his speech at the DNC at my credit blog:

Dennis Kucinich:  Wake up, America!!!

One hell of a speech. 

Yet, Dennis Kucinich is my biggest disappointment.  I really believed that he cared.  He ignored me, just like everybody else with the power to make a difference.   He ignored my fax in 2004, he ignored my posts in his forum and the dimwitted morons in charge of his forum deleted many of my posts.

The incompetence of the Kucinich staff is a great reason to kill myself.

I don’t even know whether Kucinich ever saw my fax or posts.   But if I blew my brains out at one of his public appearances, I bet he WOULD read what I had to say.

Kucinich is one of those people who gave me FALSE hope. 

I didn’t even know who he was until he ran for president in 2004.  I read in his bio how he stood up to the banks when he was the Cleveland mayor.  Kucinich became famous for putting Cleveland into bankruptcy because he refused to sell out to the banks.   Years later, Cleveland gave him an award for making this tough decision.

Kucinich was my hero.  I really believed that he would at least TRY to make a difference and that he would stand up to the banks again and I thought he just didn’t know about the issues.  Yesterday I posted a brief summary: The credit crisis was PLANNED by the Bush administration, Congress and the Regulators

Why does Dennis Kucinich NOT care about credit reporting, credit scoring and the REAL reasons for so much misery?

Rep. Brad Sherman on legislators threatened with Martial Law if they didn’t vote for the bailout.

Is Kucinich being blackmailed?

Did they threaten to kill his wife?

What the hell is going on?

I have quite a few saved pages from the Kucinich forums (they deleted the 2004 forum) and I will have to take the time to post some of the more relevant docs along with my ignored fax.

I didn’t want to have to do this because I still think that Kucinich is one of the best legislators.  He submitted the articles of impeachment and he always voted against war.  I’d much rather bash Bush.  It’s popular, it’s fun.  But nothing bothers me more than being lied to and deceived.  Bush lied, but he didn’t deceive me.  I know he’s a liar, would expect nothing else from Bush and his cronies. 

Kucinich is not like Kerry and Edwards and all these WEALTHY politicians.

I’ve been rethinking my choice to kill myself in front of the 9th circuit court of appeals.  They’re just assholes in robes.  Legislators like Kucinich are a LOT more important, they can CHANGE the laws and ENFORCE the laws.  They can fire judges.  AND they are elected. 

Kucinich could have had one of his staff respond that the banks are just too powerful and that he has to focus on what’s doable instead of wasting time and maybe even getting killed like other legislators who dared to take on the bankers. (Watch the free online documentary The Money Masters.)

Maybe Kucinich made some kind of deal, he won’t talk about the banks and they’ll allow him to make some anti-corporate speeches, knowing that nothing will come of it anyway.

I’m NOT depressed.  I’m angry. 

I am mad as hell. And I’m not going to take this anymore!

So I’m sorry, I really don’t have time to communicate privately about depression, suicide or just about anything else.  I’ve got LOTS of things to do and I ENJOY life.

I suggest that other people who don’t want to live anymore also become PRODUCTIVE and go PUBLIC.  Here or at your own site, there are a gazillion entirely FREE blogs. 

Tell the world what makes YOU angry and what YOU did to try to make a difference.

I do NOT enjoy being ridiculed and abused by lawyers and judges and having legislators like Dennis Kucinich ignore me.  I didn’t just crawl out of a hole.  I’m a professional who DOCUMENTED systemic credit reporting abuse, buggy FICO scoring formulas and many fraudulent activities.

People DIE because of those problems.

I don’t have the money to create change, especially not by myself.  All I have to give is my life.

And that probably isn’t enough unless it’s a truly SPECTACULAR suicide AND I do an outstanding job of documenting my research. 

It’s worth a shot.